Two days ago, I left my full-time job! I gave over three months notice, I helped to find and train my replacement and feel good about how capable she is. I was a respected manager, a loved teacher, a leader and after nearly seven years of hard work, I had created a magical and safe place for people to come, learn and thrive.
Then I walked away.
I walked away from the security of a regular wage and the feel-good factor of being really great at my job!
As I type, I realise how crazy it all sounds.
I keep having waves of nauseous panic!
Will I be ok? Will I keep my focus or fall into a reclusive depression? Will I continue to believe in myself now that I am officially on my own and have nobody to lift me? Will I manage to pay my bills now that I have no income?
They say that the most significant change happens when we are out of our comfort zone. Let me tell you, that’s where I am! I have worked since I was 15 years old with the strongest of work ethics. The only time that I was unemployed was over six months after moving house when I was job hunting. I was supported financially, and money wasn’t an issue, but I found myself becoming depressed!
This is where the challenge really begins for me! I will be picking up part-time work, and temporary days, I will be working hard on ‘The Self Care Rebellion’, and I will follow my dream of becoming a property developer. The test isn’t the work. I know I can work. It’s not time management; I’m the best of the best at that! It’s not even motivation; I have it in bucket loads. It is self-belief; it is knowing that I have valuable knowledge and experience, that I can bring that experience to others and help. It’s making sure that I don’t doubt myself.
Throughout my teens and my twenties, I lived by the social ‘rules’ and boundaries that I had grown up hearing. There was a specific way of living life, getting things in the right order, and then you can feel good that you did well! It took over 30 years of life experience to realise how false it all was! So here I am, breaking the rules, leaping out of my comfort zone and hoping that you will grab my hand and leap too!
Big Love Katy X
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